Revelation 6:13 And the stars of heaven fell unto the earth, even as a fig tree casteth her untimely figs, when she is shaken of a mighty wind.
Sometimes my kids ask me why things have to be so hard. I have a couple answers for that one. Sometimes they are willing to listen to my analogies and parables; sometimes, there is nothing less to say than the Lord isn’t interested in raising wimps as his children, he is raising warriors- and that is not an easy thing to do. I am grateful the hard times come in seasons, not all the time. On the other hand, this has been one of the hardest summers of record for me.
Last school year was tough. Especially for my TeaRose and myself. By Spring we were both shaking in our souls and wondering if it was worth the pain. Then in April, we found out she had also developed Scoliosis- bad enough for surgery. In spite of knowing extended family with this condition, I realized I knew very little about it …back to research mode, and all the panic involved with planning for one of the most major surgeries that Orthopedists (bone doctors) do. And how would Autism affect the whole process?
July finally came. I had found a wonderful support site with good info, and so my bags were packed. The freezer was filled for everyone at home, and my Daughter and I were checked in to the Children’s hospital for what I knew would be the rest of the week.
Then suddenly, all the planning stage was done, and off she was gone- into the operating room- and I was alone in the waiting room. Later that day, while browsing the Scoliosis site- another Mom looking forward to sitting in my shoes soon asked me a question online. She said “Can I ask how long she was under anesthesia? And what you did to stay sane?”
Well- the answer is something rather remarkable, so I am copying it here…
I had to get her up at 4:30 this morning for the drive to the hospital. We checked in at 5:30 and she officially got started (with me sent to the waiting room) at 7:30am– they told me that first they started the IV anesthesia, then they have a specialist who has little needle probes that he puts in all over the extremities and such, and they can actually monitor the weak electrical signals running thru the nerves from the spine and he watches to tell the Doc if anything changes while he moves the bones– that info right there helped a lot toward the staying sane part. I am very grateful for modern breakthroughs and learning. Then I just had to wait and wait. And wait. The surgery itself was about 4-1/2 to 5 hours, depending on whether you count their cleanup time before they came and got me. Somewhere during this time, I suddenly realized that I had left hubby with a house full of high functioning spectrum teens (and a little sister) to take care of each other for a week. :O I actually slept for about a half hour or so, since I hadn’t slept at all last night (duh) but just when I thought I couldn’t stand it, something happened.
I met another parent of a child in surgery- this was a dad whose 14 yr old son had been punched for unknown reasons by a stranger 20 yr old during the 4th of July- and it broke the kids jaw which was having to be surgically fixed. This dad was heart broken. My heart just was overcome with the need to comfort and pray for him, and in the caring for this stranger/fellow parent waiting during the unknown time of the waiting room, and helping him in his burdens; I forgot how nervous I was. In fact, I was utterly calm- even about the rest of my family at home.
It was a moment of gratitude for the blessings I suddenly realized I had. :) Funny how life works that way.
Summer was still hard- but each evening we found with surprise that we had made it thru just a little bit better.
So sitting here in the hospital room with my daughter the second time, as we wait for the IV antibiotics for a blip in our recovery progress- I finally have finished writing this up. So I’ll leave with some more scriptures I hunted up that helped me get thru the rest of the summer.
10 He found him in a desert land, and in the waste howling wilderness; he led him about, he instructed him, he kept him as the apple of his eye.
11 As an eagle stirreth up her nest, fluttereth over her young, spreadeth abroad her wings, taketh them, beareth them on her wings:
12 So the Lord alone did lead him.
Isaiah 40:29 He giveth power to the faint; and to them that have no might he increaseth strength.
30 Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall:
31 But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
Psalm 18:6 In my distress I called upon the Lord, and cried unto my God: he heard my voice out of his temple, and my cry came before him, even into his ears.
7 Then the earth shook and trembled; the foundations also of the hills moved and were shaken, because he was wroth.
10 And he rode upon a cherub, and did fly: yea, he did fly upon the wings of the wind.
13 The Lord also thundered in the heavens, and the Highest gave his voice; hail stones and coals of fire
15 Then the channels of waters were seen, and the foundations of the world were discovered at thy rebuke, O Lord, at the blast of the breath of thy nostrils.
16 He sent from above, he took me, he drew me out of many waters.
17 He delivered me from my strong enemy, and from them which hated me: for they were too strong for me.