I’m hiding out in my bedroom; the shower water running, eating a peanut butter and honey sandwich. I have several wonderful drafts started, but my head is just too foggy to work on those. It’s been a bit of a Morton Salt week- you know, “It doesn’t rain, it pours” 🙂 And I feel like I need to find the silver lining to it all– the Lord is the master of Serendipity, turning things that look bad to His purpose, but I know that unless we search, sometimes it’s hard to see his hand in those rough times.
So I’m looking…
Well- The Air Conditioner finally got so old that the motor gave out… but it is early in the year, and unseasonably cool for here in Arizona, so we can take the time to find the best way to fix it within our pocketbook. ( a blessing)
Let’s see– taxes were really hard on my Aspie hubby this year, he really stresses over finding more and more proof of governmental, um, well it wasn’t very fun…. but he pushed himself through with great strength, and never ever snapped at anyone. And we broke even too. (very watched over)
Umm- The spring pollen this year was monumental-ly hard on Brand and even Kydee struggled for the first time… but in the process of needing to get him a doctor visit, I was hugely blessed with our family doctor feeling really connected with me and my family; and he talked at great length, even figuring out how to order up some heavy metal blood tests not only for Brand, but also for my oldest, without him even being there! I’m very grateful.
Oh, and speaking of which, migraines have not abated for my oldest, in fact he says that he doesn’t feel the pain anymore, only numb, and looses a couple of days, (also makes his ASD worse than normal) I am so lost and struggling to know how to help him- it is a battle of research versus exhaustion for me… but he came to me and apologized yesterday for exploding the day before. Says thanks Mom for the food, and said Love Ya and even almost hugged! And I have looked up journal entries that said I felt very strong that he will pull thru this. Very glad I wrote it down back then. I cling to that.
And I really must mention last week, I couldn’t find sleep. I was running about 1 to 2 hours at a time and then waking up again- for days. Finally one morning at 3 am, I wrote on my facebook just a simple cry- “someone tell me I’m going to make it.” And I have to say, All day long I had family and friends sending words of encouragement. That has never happened before. In fact, the last time I tried reaching out like that- years ago- I got no response at all. None. And I told myself firmly to never try it again. But I’m glad I forgot. That day full of reassurance was —just amazing! I felt sooooo loved!
Well– The house is full of happy giggles at the moment– so I better go get that shower before my quiet time ends. Tomorrow is the last day of AIMS (state mandated yearly competency test) and then I think things might feel a little easier to breathe. If I don’t get back on before then, don’t forget to get out on the pre-dawn morning of Earth day and watch the meteor shower! I’m going to go for pictures!