Monthly Archives: August 2014

Sending moments of Awesome to all my friends



I had a revelation of sorts today-  and I’m writing it down, because in the mundane day-to-day survival mode of , well, everything- I don’t want to forget this.

It started with 2 different posts I spotted on my daily search for courage and help to get thru the tasks I have to do… and came to full-force as I came to the thought,  that “handicapped” is a frame of mind.

And really- I knew this already;  and have tried to instill it with my kids.  Sometimes it shows up at odd moments such my kids enjoying telling people that they are not “normal, ’cause normal is boring”,  and sometimes it’s a bit more or a bitter moment – such as like last spring, when my older daughter had to do a 10th grade research paper on Autism- and it was the first time she had ever heard or seen the word “disability”  in the same reference with ‘Autism”; we really had to work thru that moment of feeling broken for the first time.   And sometimes my own fatigue and moments of health flareups can make it hard to remember that feeling of  “Warriors in the service of Heaven”.    So I’m going to share the links I found today-  sending feelings of awesome to all my friends.

“Never say can’t” video clip–

A research paper on the new thinking about Autism isn’t a low-neuron problem- it’s an over-neuron problem–

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Sunday Morning Courage

Needed a good shot of courage today– normal for a Sunday.  So I came back to my favorite scripture quote.IMG_1995

Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.
For I the Lord thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee.        (Isaiah 41: 10, 13)

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Tech Saturday

So-Today I spent the day listening to conference talks, scouring u-tube videos, and learning how to make a good  “About Autism and Bullying” power-point for peer-teen classes at church  – (Not bad for coming up thru the ranks since the Apple 2)- Major blessing- a lot of comfort to lift me at the end of a hard week—fringe benefit; staying homework savvy for my kids!  🙂  Next Job, of course, is figuring out how to put it on this post, even better if I manage it before midnight; ’cause then I can say I did it all in one day (hee hee)

Hmmm- nope- tired got the best of my brain finally.. I’ll work on it soon- in the mean time- Here’s the conference address I started with… for all our hearts.  Good night!103-800

The Works of God

James E. Faust- Oct 1984

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warrior decompressions…

Warrior Decompression-  that moment in time when you realize that the daily fight to get your special needs kids all the support and services they need has made you forget for a moment that everyone else is fighting their own mountains too, and that we do not go to church for social meet and greet, or for fun;  but because we Love the Lord and wish to worship Him and strengthen his children as we promised– and then you remember that you have much to give them when you set aside your own needs.   So- gathering back together the frayed strings of my faith that the Lord will help my kids, as I help His.

“Never be discouraged. If I were sunk in the lowest pits of Nova Scotia, with the Rocky Mountains piled on me, I would hang on, exercise faith, and keep up good courage, and I would come out on top.

Joseph Smith, Jr.
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Adiue to Summer

This week has been a very overwhelming back-to-school week, totally normal I guess.   But I only forgot one appointment with a school councilor, and she rescheduled- so we’ll call it good.  🙂  There has been a lot of real-for-real good too, but I’m still a little scatterbrained with the leftovers of yesterday’s  migraine and a bad case of Angina all week, so I thought I’d just pop in some photos and that would help me remember what I wanted to say.


The very first wall… My dad has an absolute talent for getting young men to help; and when all my oldest’s friends came to see the first day of “real” work (after the garage space had been cleaned, etc.) He timed this important first step to get all the help he could.

Ah yes… It is very, very hard on all spectrum peeps to go thru change and chaos.  In fact the chaos and change involved in planning and prepping and moving toward a remodeling project can even get to the hardiest and most flexible of non-asd souls.  But the goal was visible- and very much wanted- so even tho panic was high all summer,  I am very proud of their valiant efforts to try for self control.  The first stage, my dad worked on getting me some storage in the house, while my mom had the big boys help clean up the garage, and I worked on varnish and paint inside, and drawing floor plans for the new space.  It took 4 re-draws, and a lot of helping kids find quiet spots to hide in and breathe.  In fact I took the 3 younger ones to the matinees a lot more often than ever before…  But the good moments also came.  I found the time to sit each of the two older boys with me alone and talk them thru the process of “I need you to open up and not just hate this drawing- but problem solve with me, tell me which pieces you really want, and which pieces are making you have a panic attack”… etc.  and I have to say how awesome it was to be able to watch them swallow their fears and walls and talk with me for over an hour (each) and really tag the things that were important to them and the things that they admitted to just being a selfish wish.  It was like a piece of heaven for the rest of the day for me- and that night I had the pictures come in those flashes of inspiration… and the plans were done the next day;  just in time to start drawing on the newly cleaned floor, and buy the first loads of material.   After another week- things started to get exciting…


This is what happens when an Artist and an architect/contractor gets together to play.

My sister and her hubby found a rare week when they both had 4 days off work at the same time, and did me the great gift of spending it coming down to our Arizona heat, and helping out.  Her hubby clambered around in our attic (WAY over 110 degrees up there) and strung wire for the new space. IMG_1305 IMG_1306

So I had to reciprocate, and take them out to the Calliope organ Pizza place (called Organ Stop, in Mesa.  I highly recommend it to anyone local- they even have gluten free selections!)


At this point- we all knew that summer was ending fast- but no one wanted to admit it.  I gave the camera to my youngest one day- this is just a few of the great perspectives she had..


Mom doing the mud and tape,  and photo-bombing of course 🙂


getting out all our stress – fun when there is permission to break out the wall (so we can add insulation)


IMG_1331 the angles are  on purpose- what can I say, she takes after me- an artist at heart. 🙂


Grandma smiles the best

And this is where it will sit for a while.  Grandpa is back to work, and the rest will be done during warrior-weekends.   A little escape time for the girls and me; back to school shopping- at the art store of course.  And DK and me doing last minute errands.


And then jump into the high focus of another school year.   Hard to believe they are getting so big!  TeaRose is in 11th grade this year, and DK is a freshman (9th grade!).  Kydee is 8th grade, her last year in Jr. High.  Next year they will all be in high school together!   Wow!

But this post wouldn’t be complete without the little reminders of the Autism world I walk in as my constant companion.    On the very first day of school, the High School provides a great day of orientation and activities for the new freshman.   As I was walking DK into the school, I was telling him that if it got too loud and chaotic, he should tell his group leader that he needed a quiet place, and he said “if I can remember to say all that when it’s that noisy”  Yup- that’s life!

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3 am Prayer for Courage

This is one of those nights.  I woke up and made the mistake of trying to figure out how I was going to manage to keep everything and everyone going tomorrow.  Instant recipe for insomnia.  So instead I decided it was time to search up new scriptures and quotes and a few favorite old ones, to help me have the courage to lay it all in the Lord’s hands again for the night.


                   Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say,  on the Lord.

  • The courage of life is often a less dramatic spectacle than the courage of a final moment; but it is no less a magnificent mixture of triumph and tragedy.  ~John F. Kennedy

  • A hero is no braver than an ordinary man, but he is braver five minutes longer.  ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

               Be of good courage, and he shall strengthen your heart, all ye that hope in the Lord. 

  • “All men have their fears, but those who face their fears with Faith have Courage as well” President Thomas S. Monson in April 2014 LDS General Conference: 
  • Valor is stability, not of legs and arms, but of courage and the soul.  ~Michel de Montaigne
  •  Anyone can give up, it’s the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that’s true strength.             – Unknown
Much better now.  Good night.
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