Monthly Archives: February 2015

to Stand

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Here in this solitude I stand, if only for a moment, if only in my dream,

to melt away in a sea of mist my daily load of pain.

Lord, still my heart, take my hand; give me strength to face dawns gleam.

My loved ones need more than I have tonight- tho I don’t wish to complain.

Buttress my wall, my anchor dig deep, make me a tool in thy mighty hand.

Help me to show them thy ageless Love,

Help me to help them to STAND

-by Shareen Halliday– Sept.2012- renewed and enlarged, Feb. 2015

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Sunday morning Scripture

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I was reading this today

Mark 4:

37 And there arose a great storm of wind, and the waves beat into the ship, so that it was now full.

38 And he was in the hinder part of the ship, asleep on a pillow: and they awake him, and say unto him, Master, carest thou not that we perish?

39 And he arose, and rebuked the wind, and said unto the sea, Peace, be still. And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm.

40 And he said unto them, Why are ye so fearful? how is it that ye have no faith?

Some years are stormy years.  But comfort can come, the Lord’s plan is not always to calm the storm.  He is interested in preparing warriors and building strength of heart and mind, and these things need different blessings.  But his promises are sure.  It may not be the kind of peace we are looking for, but if we trust in him, we will be able to see His peace is truly there…

John 14: 27 Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.

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Happy Anniversary

Well-On this day, 31 years ago, there was a blizzard of not-quite-record proportions up in Salt Lake City.  No one wanted to be out on  the roads… but I woke up that day quite oblivious to the fact that it was still winter.  Now here we are in Arizona, and it’s supposed to be another great day of no clouds and temperatures in the high 70’s (F) or so.

But it’s still dark outside, so it’s not too hard to remember WAY back to a day of incredible naivete 🙂  I look back at the few photos that have survived the adventures life has had to offer and I think; It’s a very good thing we don’t know what’s in store for us, or we would never have the guts to get started in the first place.

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But I am very glad I did.  Thru it all, I may have learned many things.  But one thing I want to say before anyone wakes up today, is how amazingly grateful I am to be blessed with being best friends with such an amazing Hero.  When we were young and knew less- we didn’t know any of those fancy words for what challenges the Lord had set upon my Sweetie’s shoulders.  But I did know that he loved the Lord, that he was super smart and had a great and unusual sense of humor, that he never gave up once committed, and that he was committed to loving me.  What a great list to start out with.  I also knew that the Lord had had a hand in our getting together.  These things have given me the courage to hang on for the roller-coaster ride called life.  At this point, I can say that I have learned that my hubby does not like to be surprised much, that he loves Christmas, acting, and dancing.  He loves talking to people and making new friends, he has a good eye for photography, and he has a train-track brain that will not let go of a problem till he tracks it down to the very end and fixes it- which makes him very good at his engineering job.  He also has Aspergers.  My hero has the courage and determination to continually learn new things in order to be a good hubby and dad in our home, including fixing air conditioning motors, car transmissions, clothes dryer drums, unpicking my sewing mistakes, and learning whatever his sons are into;  the humility to say sorry when he makes a mistake, comforts me when I make all my mistakes.  As we have learned together, he has found ways to describe the different and beautiful world he lives in;  and he still has a deep love for the Lord.   I love you Sweetheart,  I am so lucky.    Yup– I’ll go for another 31 years.

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Myth Mashing- debunking Myth-taken notions- High Functioning

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Today I am seriously in the mood to do some Myth Debunking.  For this first ever episode of Myth Mashing, I am going to talk about some myth-taken ideas about High Functioning Autism.

First,  I need to back up and highlight a few of the comments that have brought me to this rather feisty mood.  And before I do that, I need to pause for a moment of true gratitude to all who have made such comments and others lately, and in the past– for you have helped me in a very real way to fight my way back up from the deep depression I sometimes struggle with- to a more sure standing position (cue “Rocky” music.)   I also want to say, with huge gratitude, that I am off the medicine that the Dr. had prescribed to try to help me with the energy needed to keep going.  It helped for a while, but not enough to make up for the terrible trouble I started having with my short term memory and thinking abilities.  It had gotten to the point that even helping with homework was barely doable, and blog writing was at an all-time stand-still.   When it started to effect my health too, I went cold turkey at the beginning of January- call it my New-Year’s change. Of course, then I had to go thru the recovery from that.  😛

Well,  O.K.    Now that I actually can think clearly sometimes, I started pondering on some comments that have been weighing on my heart… “you just need to tell your son to grow up/ stop doing that/ etc.(as is stop hugging everyone)”… and this well meaning one, “you need to not try to do so much on your own, get your kids to help”…and this one from right behind my back at a scout meeting “Oh (other teen’s name) I’m so glad you will be turning 16 this month, the boys so need a good example” (you know whose boy was already 17 at the time, don’t you?)….then there’s, “just wait till your girls get a little older and you can take them outfit shopping, you’ll have so much fun” (I can’t count the number of meltdowns a trip like that has, and would cause;  between the crowds, the noise, and being asked to choose something- oi vey!!)   …lately I heard this one,  “You’re soooo lucky that they only have a little bit of Autism”… about the same time as this one, “So isn’t he going to go on a mission?”  but the one that sparked this post was from a couple of very well-meaning sweet ladies who I had talked to a while ago about the remodeling and such that our family started last year, and that marked the end of my ability to keep the rest of my house even sort-of clean– both managed to ask me on the same day, “so, what have you managed to get done on your house lately”

Can I say there were not many tears this time- I’m kinda cried-out.

Anyway– I found this really great article by a fellow blogger mom of High functioning Autism… it says everything I want to say – please click and jump over to her site here   sorry to all who love photos and such- but Autism is an invisible disorder-nothing to look at unless we draw it ourselves, and I left the visual on her site- go look. http://parentingchaos.com/understanding-high-functioning-autism/

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