Monthly Archives: October 2015

Ode to Joy, Next Stanza, part 2

Hi!

It’s really unusual that I have enough energy to write at the tail end of the day- but guess what?  I am eternally grateful for such a wonderful loving Father and his blessings of the day.

Today, I started out the day with the decision to watch for moments of good.  And I have to admit it was not all rosy. It started well tho, my girls and I were in awe at the amazing storm clouds dancing in the first light of dawn on the way to high school.

Then I had doctor appointment stuff to do with one of the boys.  It went ok.  – but I have been struggling with the fatigue part of my chronic fun all week, finally it won, and my short power nap took 2 hours.  😛  I didn’t forget my hunt- there were little things along the way, things like my Hubby being totally sweet to me, and my older boys making me laugh, I even managed laundry.  I was starting to think that I would have to write about being grateful for these little normal things (and I am, don’t get me wrong!)  but then a couple of moments of personal Shazam happened.

First, on the way to pick the girls up again, my mind was caught up on a phrase a friend had said to me online- saying “…wise woman, with a lot of experience”  those 7 little words kept tumbling over in my head until I almost shouted with surprise when the phrase was followed by the thought “wisdom that can only be gained by trudging thru the gunk- in person.”   Suddenly things I had forgotten came back into perspective– namely those moments when I have come to realize that the personal strength to handle trying moments, or difficult kid’s needs – and the tiny flashes of wisdom here and there to help others, have ALL come thru earlier moments of great trials and hardships.  And I wondered for a minute if this was what all the great people I admire have in common.

So I was totally at peace this afternoon- but still tired… then this evening I heard the brand new PianoGuys cover music. I’m not sure how to link to it yet, so go look it up- called “Fight Song/Amazing Grace”.  I read the “abouts” in their you tube link, and then read the lyrics to the songs- and I felt galvanized- this hit me right in the place where the fire in my bones has always burned- and kindled the tired embers.  I know tomorrow will come, and I might have to care for kids in the middle of the night before that- but at the moment tonight, I feel 10 years younger.  Perhaps this sounds a little silly, but we all know the power of music, and the Lord spoke to my tired body and soul today- something I desperately needed.

And I am so very grateful.

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Ode to Joy, Next Stanza

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A couple of days ago, my friendly “on this day…” button on Facebook pulled up a post I wrote 2 years ago; called Ode to Joy. (find it here)  It crystalized some things I have been pondering for a while.   You know how some things change and some things just don’t in the whole caring for special needs kids routine?   Even the time of day that I have free to write is the same (early am before the house wakes)  I think perhaps that I will always struggle with my health, tho I now have a few fancy medical terms to give people when they ask– Stress triggered Fibromyalgia is a good one, and PTSD (battle trauma- shared by many special needs moms) too.  But as I read that other post, one thing occurred to me that is different- and that is I felt closer to the spirit and handled the daily battles better.

I have noticed this for a while- a real run-down feeling, and I have been trying to figure out what I did different, or could do different to get back to that place- I need inspiration so much on a daily basis.  Then as I read, I realized that I had fallen out of the habit of looking for the good– the silver linings of the day.  So today I am going to watch for moments of joy— I’ll get back with you on how I did.  See you tonight!

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a little courage quote for today

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It’s been a very hard hill to climb this week; but I woke up early today, and clear headed- which is a gift.  So I looked up a courage quote to share…

“Have courage for the great sorrows of life and patience for the small ones; and when you have laboriously accomplished your daily task, go to sleep in peace.”
Victor Hugo

It goes with my ponderizing scripture for this week…

1 Chr. 28: 20
…, Be strong and of good courage, and do it: fear not, nor be dismayed: for the Lord God, even my God, will be with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee, until thou hast finished all the work for the service of the house of the Lord.

Hope you all have a good wednesday.

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