It’s really unusual that I have enough energy to write at the tail end of the day- but guess what? I am eternally grateful for such a wonderful loving Father and his blessings of the day.
Today, I started out the day with the decision to watch for moments of good. And I have to admit it was not all rosy. It started well tho, my girls and I were in awe at the amazing storm clouds dancing in the first light of dawn on the way to high school.
Then I had doctor appointment stuff to do with one of the boys. It went ok. – but I have been struggling with the fatigue part of my chronic fun all week, finally it won, and my short power nap took 2 hours. 😛 I didn’t forget my hunt- there were little things along the way, things like my Hubby being totally sweet to me, and my older boys making me laugh, I even managed laundry. I was starting to think that I would have to write about being grateful for these little normal things (and I am, don’t get me wrong!) but then a couple of moments of personal Shazam happened.
First, on the way to pick the girls up again, my mind was caught up on a phrase a friend had said to me online- saying “…wise woman, with a lot of experience” those 7 little words kept tumbling over in my head until I almost shouted with surprise when the phrase was followed by the thought “wisdom that can only be gained by trudging thru the gunk- in person.” Suddenly things I had forgotten came back into perspective– namely those moments when I have come to realize that the personal strength to handle trying moments, or difficult kid’s needs – and the tiny flashes of wisdom here and there to help others, have ALL come thru earlier moments of great trials and hardships. And I wondered for a minute if this was what all the great people I admire have in common.
So I was totally at peace this afternoon- but still tired… then this evening I heard the brand new PianoGuys cover music. I’m not sure how to link to it yet, so go look it up- called “Fight Song/Amazing Grace”. I read the “abouts” in their you tube link, and then read the lyrics to the songs- and I felt galvanized- this hit me right in the place where the fire in my bones has always burned- and kindled the tired embers. I know tomorrow will come, and I might have to care for kids in the middle of the night before that- but at the moment tonight, I feel 10 years younger. Perhaps this sounds a little silly, but we all know the power of music, and the Lord spoke to my tired body and soul today- something I desperately needed.
And I am so very grateful.